Miss everyone from my usual gang...love the fun and enthusiasm everyone has for everything..its so unlike my classmates...they're all so competitive and its a totally 'marks-orientated' kinda relationship we have with each other...everything to them is to see how many points they can get... :(
talk about having fun... =/
sad to say that there aren't many true friendship in poly everyone's making use of or backstabbing each other...i've not been trained to handle this kinda situation and i'm feeling so stressed i'm thinking of leaving...
...feeling so stressed for so many reason... i don't know where to start...everyone seems to be getting along well but guess its just the facade that we're all looking at...i don't know...

recently went into a compulsive * streak i've hurt my bestie in poly really badly...took her trust and kindness too lightly forgot how easily worked up she can be...i don't know how i did it or wh...but its definately going to affect my friendship wi her...sad coz she's been the one thats been there for me most of the time other than mi dear...

i pray to god for strength to carry on with my studies in poly till the end of next semester...help