The usual low points of my life...
been so cranky and bothered for the past few days coz i was feeling so stressed..
there're so many things have been going through my mind...all of which are demanding 100% attention from me...simply don't know how to allocate my time anymore... :( usual worries are stuff like:
- School work (tutorials...exams...fyp)
I'm tired...everythings so going not as planned...all i need is some time to consider my next move and put together what i need before the next dateline but is it that hard for them to let me have some time alone to think how to do my work..study for my paper and get some thing planned for my fyp interview...afterall these are the major things in my school life right now and my future after graduation actually depend on it.
- Family ( everyone...esp my cousin)
Worried for my family....it seems so empty that and i know my mum's worried about us too...she complains that though we live in the same house she doens't get to see us as often as she like could be because we've all grown up and want some personal space but couldn't they just find time to sit together at the table or in front of the tv to show that they are still around? The only person home most of the time other than my mum is xm....she's been studying really hard but she's nt studying the right way..been trying to tell her that but her stubborn-ness got on my nerve...hope she succeeds and gets into her ideal jc....
My bro has been mia for alot of family activities...kinda worried about him...he's drifted from our house since his poly career has begin could be because of his schwork and stuff from poly and church but he hasn't been home talking to anyone or anything...he'll zoom out of the house the moment his hp rings and shackup in his room the moment he reaches home and blast his da*n sound system...
I'm guilty of zoning out in online games and forums to unwind every nght after dinner but that's due to the unreasonable amount of stress that we get subjected to in class but that's my excuse and i'm entitled to that...=X *sigh* talk about spending much quality time together...
my cousin ran away from sch again.heard that this isn't her first time...feeling sad, disappointed and upset coz she's more like a sister than a cousin to me. we had so much telepathy and i had so much hopes for her...i wish i could help but she's ever since she started work she's been building this mini-wall between us that though i see her but i can't feel her thoughts anymore...something that i'm so totally not willing to accept...cos though i trust her but she doesn't know that the world isn't as bright and cheery as our teachers taught us...her poor parents have lost hope...especially her mum...wondering how she ...i know they're both at a lost of what to do and still trying to give her more space to grow but they're also very sad that they have lost their little girl...though a daughter, she's still their first child and the pride and connections they had is unexplainable afterall god didn't plan for anything super disasterous to happen did he?
My friends are as usual...everyone busy doing their own things preparing for exams and stuff i suppose...gwen getting her results soon and given the amount of effort she put in,i'm quite sure that she'll breeze through it all.... :)
*sigh* all of them ...
and Chalet woes, hammie's love,friendster
poor baby..been neglecting him for so many things....
thank god my baby's understanding...muahx love him so much.... ;D
posted by Bee @ 11:11 PM
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